damn it...
how does anyone keep on a crush for 4 years? I think I'm some kind of record setter... it's terrible though...and completely amateurish/immature/embarrasing. Luckily no one knows... for now... I'll probably cave if I imbibe too much (which, please God, may it never happen again) and tell someone... but I really don' t think it'll happen until te end of the year (at the very least) and then it'll all be over cos everyone will go their seperate ways. Oh man... honestly, I have no idea what's wrong with me... think it's the 'I'm crazy and I want a boyfriend' thing thats getting to my head... may I never have another one again until 10 years later...